The Voice That Doesn't Lie

I've always considered myself to be a pretty "intuitive" person and I've always felt like my intuitive instincts were usually right on target. But what I taught myself to do over the years was to shut down that intuition...my "inner voice." I became very skilled at silencing my intuition and in retrospect, made many decisions in my life that did not lead to optimal circumstances and could have been avoided had I listened to my intuition. I say this with no regrets but more of an awareness and obviously, a big lesson (okay, many lessonS) learned.

I remember the day very clearly...the day that my inner voice became so loud (I like to say it was yelling at me) there was no possible way I could silence it. It was a hot sunny day in May, warmer than usual. I was sitting in my car outside the gym, talking on the phone, very uncomfortable, dripping in sweat. "Hang up the phone! HANG UP THE PHONE!!! JUST. HANG. UP." It was the first time I'd ever had an experience like this...the voice was loud and unavoidable. The message was crystal clear: run far, run fast and whatever you do, don't look back. And it was the first time I decided to listen to the voice, my intuition. It wasn't going to allow me to deny it this time.

After that moment, I decided I would start listening to that voice from now on. My life changed when I decided to stop silencing my intuition and start listening...and following it. When I started listening I started making better choices for myself. But what has taken time is for me to start trusting my intuition, trusting myself. It's like practicing...you have to practice listening to your intuition and letting it show you that it's right and the more you do this the more you learn to trust it.

Our heads get in the way so often. We decide, cognitively, that we want something to be a certain way and then it becomes hard for us to honor our intuition. And it always comes down to one thing...FEAR. Fear is the thing that blocks our intuition and it does it very, very well. The fear doesn't just go away when you listen to your intuition, you just have to decide that even though you're afraid you're going to trust your intuition anyway. Trust that sometimes your heart knows what your head refuses to acknowledge.