We are supposed to thank the people who try to break us because they've made us stronger. I have learned that first hand over the last few years. And because of that, I decided that I would make myself strong, I would make myself a better mother, friend and person. I have been changed and for that, I can only say thank you.
“The kids don’t need to see a counselor, they need a better
mom.” He told me that over and over again. I cried. I was angry. And then I
realized…he was right.
I was always a good mother. From the day I found out I was
pregnant with my first child (that’d be September 15, 1995 to be exact) all I
wanted to do was get it right. I wanted to learn everything that was needed to
be learned so I could be the perfect mom. As we know, there is no such thing as a perfect mom, a
perfect woman, a perfect person, a perfect anything.
There is just doing the best we can do. And I always did my best for them.
My kids needed more. They needed me to stop everything and
give them 100% of my attention. They needed me to connect in a way that I hadn’t
ever connected before. They needed all
of me, not just pieces of me. They needed to witness the depth of my love. They
needed me to prove that my love has no limits and that I will walk through the
fire to fight for their rights – their rights to be happy, to have love, to
live without fear. And that is what they got. They needed a better mom and they
got that. 